For the most part, I accept my role as a stay-at-home mom. I love watching the twins grow and learn under my care. With my teacher background, I’m able to occasionally incorporate lessons into play without turning home time into school.
However, there are days, like today, where I morn my writing time. Granted, I understand the importance of my job as a stay-at-home mom, but that doesn’t always fill the void. If you’re a writer and don’t have a chance to write, your whole psyche’s affected. At least, mine is. I become withdrawn, irritable, and consumed with guilt because I SHOULD feel satisfied with my life. I have healthy children and a loving husband, who earns enough to allow me to stay home with the twins. Eventually, I’ll have more time for my career. I realize that, but somehow I still need a writing fix every now and again to get me through this period.
This feeling is hard for a non-writer to understand, which is one reason many writers form support groups. Do you have one?